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P.S.M. space: the connection with my favAugust 02 the past, the present and the futuresomething are not ment to be forgotten dog lifei am a dog, bow wow!
i were living in a good place, comfortable, enjoy life slowly.
one day, i went to dog island, knowing my life will change from that day.
i saw many dog like me there.
first thing we do there is to shave our fur.
feel very cold!
now every one of us look the same. bow wow!
the dog trainer group us and take charge us.
they seem very nice and funny.
they gave us our own dog tag so we can be identified.
they teach us a lot of things, and knock us down now and then.
it is very tiring to follow their order. bow wow!
we need to do training everyday.
sometimes we even need to wear 9kg of load to do training.
very boring and rigid.
my paw feel like breaking. bow wow!
we were issued with a heavy bone.
this bone can protect us.
so we must gurad it with our life.
the dog trainer force us to break and join back the bone very fast.
we need to curl a lot. bow wow!
the weather on this island is very hot. at noon, we need to walk in a specific manner under the hot sun. very scorching. we keep sticking out tongue to sweat. bow wow! we move into forest to live.
on the way, we must bark continuously and loudly.
very tiring. my throat hurt.
in the forest, we gotton dog biscuits.
it taste bad.
i feel like a wild dog instead of city dog. bow wow!
we are going to finish our stay here soon.
then we will probably never come back here anymore.
all the friends we have,
we have for life.
all the memories we have,
we remember for life.
on my birthday i will loudly bark:
BOW WOW! *Amerce, u still own me 5 dao pox.醒来！早晨
太阳升呀升，
第一道光线透过种种障碍物抵达地面，
世上万物都迎接它。
花儿开了艳丽的身子，
重树发出淡淡的氧气，
彩云画出开朗的线条，
我们伸了伸懒腰。
醒来吧！
April 26 回来了，出去了 我回来了。但，多一下又要出去了。 在营的这段时间，交到了很多朋友，学到了许多，玩了不少。 想念也不少。 想念家，亲人，朋友； 想念街灯，租屋，汽车； 想念市民，风，云，和 想念自己。 因为在营里，没有属于自己的时间。 甚至无法自由的散步。 好多感受，都得往心里赛。 是我太烂吧，无法找到一个能了解我，跟我有同感，能什么都说的朋友。 是时候改变了， 在我出去之后。 现在，先说声在见吧。 April 11 enlistment daytoday i will be enlisted at 0830. sian. finally it is my turn to enter the army, after seeing few of my friends botak. tml a lots of things will change, and by the end of 2 weeks, will i changed too? hope i will change for the better ba.
feel that it is essential to blog, like say a goodbye to everyone here, cuase 2 weeks later, i may not be this me anymore.
still got many things havent complete yet, things i should finish before going in, like my story writing.
anyway, got to sleep soon, got lots of work from tml. sian.
till i come out March 16 致吾心的信亲爱的心：
近来还好吧？最近，我开始为快到的国民服务训练，辛苦你了。但请你理解，这只不过是个小小的开始，接下来的恐怕是现在的几十赔。一定要挨下去哦。
你为我服务了快19年了。这些日子，你每一分每一秒都不停的跳动着，一定会累吧。但，你从来都不堪一声，默默的劳动。我在此向你说声谢谢。放心，我会好好的照顾你的，少吃油腻和不健康的食物。继续努力。
除了应付我躯体上的要求，你也满足了我身心，给了我感情。你让我有喜怒哀乐，和爱。所以，我爱我生边的人，和许多好友。但，我只不过19岁，还有很多的感情没体验过。我需要时间和（你的）指导。所以，请你不要在短斩的时间，起任何大的变化。我知道我不再是小孩，是时候感受一些特别，美好的情感。但，请给我有些时间，因为，这很难应付。
总之，谢谢你。不会让委屈你的。合作愉快.
思铭
March 09 公初的同学 上个星期是A's成绩放榜日。我们都回到学校去。再一次，我们有聚在一起。 看见这莫多好久不见，曾在一起并肩作战的朋友，我忘了焦虑的心情，反而感到一丁丁的快乐。 再怎样讲，友情还是比学业重要许多。 但，当我们开始谈话时，我发现很多事都没变。 我们之间，连基本的默契都没有。话题，就更不用说了。 有时，我真的不明白，为什摸世上会有这莫多种不同的人。 而在他们之间，这莫难沟通。 也许是老天爷的安排吧。 要让我学到这世界有多大。 不过，我还是会继续的和大家做朋友。 再怎样讲，友情才是最重要的。 March 05 想你过了一段时期了
我依然，想着你
你的样子，风俗，笑容
一直出现在我的，脑海里
虽然这夺走了我的许多时间，集中力和睡眠
但我感到，很幸福
就像到了，天堂
也许是我太傻了
花这莫多的时间，想你
所有关于你的，我
看了一片又一片，读了一次有一次
没想到，想着一个人是这莫的富有
我笑了
因为我，想你
March 01 离别让我与你握别
再轻轻抽出我的手
知道思念从此生根
浮云白日
山川庄严温柔
让我与你握别
再轻轻抽出我的手
年华从此停顿
热泪在心中汇成河流
是那样万般无奈的凝视
机场旁找不到
一朵可以相送的花
就把祝福别在襟上吧
而明日
明日又隔天涯 February 28 等我好吗你走了，留下我一个人默默的哭泣。
我不知道，我即使从一个男人变成一个爱哭鬼。
也不知道，为什么天天，时时，刻刻都想着你。
是我在怀念以往美好的回忆，还是我的心在做怪。
真的没想到，过了这莫多年，我还是一样的失败。
说了好多年的谎言，锁了一个又一个锁头。
总有一天，我会改变的。
直到那一天的到来，希望你会等我。
时间，请你不要淡化它，至少直到那一天的到来。
等我。 February 18 For my friend-生命-
这个清晨，我依然坐在地上独自凝神
一阵轻轻的扑簌声使我惊醒
接着是第二枝，同样迅速
八朵硕大如血的花瓣
瞬间静静的躺落于桌面和地上
我无意间听到落花鲜红的呻吟
我见证了美的告别和凋零
这一却仅来至一瞬
惊心触目的一瞬
我没有清扫也没有移动
只是固执地回想着那掉落的声音
一个时辰，又一个时辰
屋外的阳光已攀上高大的树顶
我是否浪费了我的生命？
我想把这首诗送给好友Jordan。他的经历是我们学到生命的脆落于无常。我们会更加的珍惜生命。
现实是残酷的，美好是短斩的。Jordan，我还有很话没更你说，很多事没更你做。但，是时候放手了。永别了，我的好友。我们会想念你，记住你。你永远活在我们的心中。 November 19 last daytoday is the last day of studing. tml all the studies will come to an end. will it be the gate to fun, joy and laughter, or just bordom?
today is the last series of my a level bolg. guess i wont be so stress to bolg everyday anymore. November 16 pre bio/3today is the day before bio paper 3. it is significant because tml paper will be the last major paper that we have. haha. after tml left only paper 1 mcq. so, i guess today is the last day we will be studing hard. i will remember today and the feeling, before i feel emptiness after A level.
study with dom today at smu. as i walk down the empty corridor, i realise, this will be the last time i am coming here. no more studies after this. how will the world be like without book? not that i am a mugger, but, i am just so used to studying.
i realise, today is the most challenging day to study seriously, cause the end and freedom is already so near. need to have a lot of mental will to continue.
opps, just realised that i havent check my answer for rj bio prelim. guess wat i did was wasted.
once again, i want to thanks everyone for all they had did and committed, all the hours spent studying together, joking together, or simple staying together. i will never forget those moments. thanks for the memories. i will also thanks mr tan, who taught me bio in secondary school. he inspire me. hmm, i will also thank mr bala.
how is everyone doing? exam is coming to an end for many, espc those who take phy. should be starting to enjoy life now. hope your all dun need good luck wish anymore.
today is the last day of serious studying. i will remember this day. i promise, once i gotton enough rest from all these, i will come back, on my quest for knowledge. November 14 post chem/1 stressit was a massacre. chem paper 1 is horrendous. out of 40, it will be good if u can get more than 30, damn good. i didnt know cambridge will save the kill for the last paper. it is a good paper, with good combination of GLness and critical thinking qn. the structure qn are juicy, but for this paper, it is the other way round. we are being hunt.
now what is left is skeleton and some flesh.
just finish playing miniclip gasme on com. going study w dom now. chem last papernow i am only hours away from my last chem paper. for some, hours to their 50% freedom. at this moment, i realise one quote mdm leow always say: to be successful, one must know what the other know and what they dont. this has aways be the basic for me to my quest for knowledge.
two hour more to my chem last paper. as i refer back to all those thing that happen in chem lesson or related in my secondary school, i realise i am fortunate. no wonder the world is not fair. November 13 checklist for post examchecklist:
i think i am a bit too greedy, but this is me. =p will add on if i remember something i forget. last econ n chemtwo days ago is my econ paper. no feeling for it again. sian. but i have feeling against moe. i wonder how much moe like to joke. the paper, it is GL. we are not having joking session, pls. this is A level. anyway, here goes my last econ paper, hopefully the last time i do something related with econ. now i have chance to repair the damage for my wrong choice of subject.
a few of my friends screw up econ. accodring to them, it is disasterous. jw say he learnt 2 years of crap, ws say he crap his way through, bw do wrong qn, zh essay gone case. havent heard of any good comments abt this econ paper. for me, i have no comment. lol
today went out with zh and dom. shiok. 1 day only do 2 mcq paper. how efficient.
btw, i dedicate this part of my bolg to dom, for his birthday. happy birthday, dom.
tml is chem. the last paper for chem. i want to thanks mdm leow for her effort in teaching me chem back in secondary school, and for inspiring a passion for chem in me. she is also my 2nd fav teacher. also thanks mr lai for incubating a strong liking for physics, though i didnt continue taking physics in JC. i promise to make up for it at the earliest possible opportunity. of course, i want to thank all teacher in jc who had made this possible.
tml is also the last afternoon paper we are having. A level is coming to an end. again, i wish all the best of luck. dun leave any regret.
i wonder, how will i feel immediately after the exam. will i feel emptyiness again? i may. ths feeling, is not good. November 11 Chem n Econtoday is chem and econ together. shiok day. chem is ok, aiming for B. econ i cant do any qn. shiok.
lost the A level feeling today. probably cause i roughly know what to expect from the past few papers. or it is simply that i dun have much hope for my econ. this is me, can do well in science, but not the arts and languages.
heard from BW that he did qn 3 of econ essay. shouldnt have choose this qn. sorry to mention your name again.
hang on, a few more days left to freedom, a few more days to our begining! November 08 math P2yesterday is math. not bad.
went out to play lan with YF. 1 hour session become 2 hour. ZH even better, went out to watch movie.
promised Dom i will write this. YH best friend will try to GL me every day. lol. everytime see him most often then not he will GL. this is not a duty of a security guard, but more of a joker. lol.
chat with 3 people at one time today on sms. chat until messy. for BW, chat with him from morning to evening. shiok. other two are ZH and Bernard. in the afternoon JW join in too. lol.
found a great song yesterday, if we hold on together. November 06 chemtoday is chemistry. shiok paper. can do many qn.
tml is math paper. for the last time, i read though my math notes, try to complete the pile of math worksheet. for one last time. guess all thing must come to an end somehow. thanks all ms soh and all math teachers for inculating a passion in math in me. disasterous dayhow much does your blank worth? well, mine worth 26 for my bio paper today. 26/80 is a lot! omg. total blank somemore, not counting the careless ones. here goes my bio, i guess. this is wat i get for choosing to take bio in JC, regrets that i didnt take physics. haiz.
now, i am looking at the sms i sent to someone yesterday, just to consloe myself. lol
really hope everyone is doing or revising fine today. this feeling of knowing that paper is not well done is horrible. November 05 Mathyesterday was math. not a bad paper, at least more like A level paper, not commedy. high english standard of this paper kill me of 6 marks. now i realise the importance of english. YF walk out of exam hall with only 2 marks lost, one of the best students.
hope no one will be affected if they did not do well yesterday, you can still catch up one.
coming in the next hour is bio. hope evolution wont come out, i will really write jokes. that is me, stunt boy. November 03 GPi think i am going crazy with A level. i am in fact, starting to blog! and do so every single day!! omg. just like miss khoo said, students turn wierd when O level is coming. well, i guess it is th same for a level too. lol.
today is gp. i felt that MOE is cracking a joke on u, a rather big one. paper 1 qn is full of stunts! pls, dun copy me during such important occasion, though i a famous for being stunt boy. so, as a return, i make stunts in the essays. hope cambridge ppl will appreciate stunts just like thouse MOE did.
hope everyone is still coping well. sorry BW again for knowing that u did not do very well for both papers. must jia you for the others subject even more k! dun kill me for mentioning your name here in a negetive context.
i think after today, i am going to love to read more about air travel. thanks MOE again for incubating this interest in me.
air travel should be promoted, not discouraged. to what extent do u agree?
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